ive loved you since then ive loved you since way back when i fell for you when the earth was swollen blue shooting stars looking so innocent while shedding light on mass extinction imminent primordial angst gripping tight as pangaea sank the jura mountains light and pale that day i fell for you in the Jurassic age ive loved you since then ive loved you since way back when i fell for you when the earth was swollen blue shooting stars looking so innocent while shedding light on the mass extinction so imminent

I could write a thousand rhymes on how your hand melts into mine but they would still tear and scatter when the wind blows through. no matter how loving your glance lasts for a second I know I’ll never be enough for you. Close your wallet cause his photo eyes are too much for me to take. I wont burn all your letters but I’ll wash them away. Breathe in one last time and lend a taste of the sky. By the time you exhale I’ll have set all the sails I’ll be gone without saying goodbye. I’ll go off by myself when the ones who made me cry want a piece of the glory. Never heard of again “a nice kid with a tragedy story”. Breathe in one last time and lend a taste of the sky. By the time you exhale I’ll have set all the sails I’ll be gone without saying goodbye.

Something like this dies fast- that I know. But you didn’t even stick around to apologize. Well, you did, but we all knew it was just so you could go. The next day you took all your things and left for Tucson. I don’t think you even felt bad- I know you won’t look back. It’s not like I even expect much of you anymore. It was always about you. I could swear you thought you were the sun or something. I hated the mall, and all your favorite records, and all the lame shows you used to make me go to; But I went and I listened, even acted interested, cause that’s what a good friend does Sitting in my room on New Year’s Eve, I’m wondering if it was even worth it. Was what we made worth the grief it cost us? Is anything really worth this? All the drives to Poughkeepsie and Massachusetts, New London, New York City, Sleeping in the van and playing Brand New on the radio- To throw that all away, it’s a pity. I could think of it either as two years of wasted time, Or something I was lucky to ever have at all. Either way I wish it was still mine. And I wish you were still mine And I wish it didn’t all have fall apart But it’s not, and you aren’t, and it did But I guess that’s just growing up Moving on, getting older And by feeling this bad I know I’m letting you win So I’m happy now I won’t give you the satisfaction I’m feelin real good, Feeling alright Its new years eve, And i’ll forget you come midnight

music + lyrics by katie crutchfield Take my word for it, I'm not worth it I ignored you all night and you don't deserve it Morning, bathtub, my skin soft and hot I was sure you were right but you're not I contemplate my ruined fate Someone will hurt me so bad one day And you'll resonate or I'll apologize Or maybe I'll make the same mistake twice I hide from phone calls under the warm water Malice desists, no it woefully recurs And it plays like daytime TV shows, I confuse you and I tell you not to love me But I still kiss you when I want to And I lament, you're innocent But somehow the object of my discontent And it's fucked up, I let you in Even though I've seen what can happen You make a tape, receive it in the mail And I force myself busy, the diversion will prevail And I will swallow all my guilt with little pills and forge my chin up And I will only think about it in the morning, in the bathtub