Something like this dies fast- that I know.
But you didn’t even stick around to apologize.
Well, you did, but we all knew it was just so you could go.
The next day you took all your things and left for Tucson.
I don’t think you even felt bad- I know you won’t look back.
It’s not like I even expect much of you anymore.
It was always about you. I could swear you thought you were the sun or something.
I hated the mall, and all your favorite records, and all the lame shows you used to make me go to;
But I went and I listened, even acted interested, cause that’s what a good friend does
Sitting in my room on New Year’s Eve,
I’m wondering if it was even worth it.
Was what we made worth the grief it cost us?
Is anything really worth this?
All the drives to Poughkeepsie and Massachusetts, New London, New York City,
Sleeping in the van and playing Brand New on the radio-
To throw that all away, it’s a pity.
I could think of it either as two years of wasted time,
Or something I was lucky to ever have at all.
Either way I wish it was still mine.
And I wish you were still mine
And I wish it didn’t all have fall apart
But it’s not, and you aren’t, and it did
But I guess that’s just growing up
Moving on, getting older
And by feeling this bad
I know I’m letting you win
So I’m happy now
I won’t give you the satisfaction
I’m feelin real good,
Its new years eve,
And i’ll forget you come midnight